651

back from 651 again....yet another chit chat session with the usuals..hahaha..i dunno why we have so many endless topic to talk about..just keep talking and talking and talking=)

just now went swimming with Zhi Li during the afternoon, i think we talk more than we swam lol...just bored..

Omg..just a few more days to my NS...i really hope my wish would really come true...just hope that determination and perseverance can really make my wish...which is also my birthday wish=)
Going to sleep now..tired..tomolo need to go play soccer..LOL




我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳,
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好,
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉,
我受不了.

My Heart Felt Songs That Represents My Feeling Now

Do Listen

记得爱

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念
勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有
说不出的心碎　Oh yeah
我还爱着一个人　但愿
回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉
证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退　Oh～
记得爱　所有幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开
伸出手　继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱 是我给过的答案
就不再　考虑应该不应该
一滴泪　落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾
只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

搞笑
那一条牙膏 在对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹
好快乐少了人唠叨

蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

还在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎么熬
这么多年 早就喜欢 有你的撒娇
我想我能熬 但是至少要让我知道
你好不好


我们的小狗 食量变好小
眼神里常常显得无聊
他习惯睡觉的床位 少了一双脚
所以他常常看着门口睡不着

我在搞笑 借着热闹 掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑 偏要说着 一个人真好
当人群散了 突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了

我在搞笑 却在最后 眼泪拼命掉
你的离开 失去多少 我计算不了
忙完了一天 突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀

还在搞笑 是否拥有 麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌 却避不开 催泪的曲调
我彻夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到
你好不好


This song makes me cry and think back...putting a strong front infront of my frens..pretend that i am the stronger one...haiz...cheer up wee chong

SP Graduation

Back from SP graduation, it was fun though the speech infront was boring..hahaha

Grumpy, one of the fighting fish is sick, taking extra care for him right now, he is suffering from fin decay his fin behind has been like been eaten off...just came from 900+ the aquarium cause last time Valerie told me there is a aquarium there so i go bought medicine for Grumpy..Stay Strong Grumpy!!!!!..dunno should i tell Valerie about grumpy being sick cause she seems more pre-occupied with other stuff...
you see grumpy tail like has been eaten off=(
you must be strong!!! you still have to wait for Valerie to come and see you!!!







more pic will be uploaded to face book=)




i only could stand at a corner hoping someday you would just come back and say "hi"

I will be back soon

Pictures to upload!!!Yesterday went fishing at lim chu kang reservoir..caught two fishes using lure..shall upload the pics...later have to wake up at 7am tomolo got time den i blog...good night!!!


i dun have much time..time is running short for me....

651

hahaha...my new hang out place..651!!!! lol...having the guys chit chatting session again...it was fun..i started to realize that i have actually alot alot of friends out there waiting for me, to go out with them to have fun and play with them...

Every single day i have recieving msges from my friends asking me to go out, go eat supper , go play soccer, go play L4D, go clubbing(esp donald=X), come my hse majong etc. i have not been running out of programs...lol..

Just went out with Aileen today..we went Vivo go walk walk..chit chatted alot..lol..it was fun going out with her again..shall call her out again soon..it was fun chatting with her. Life never a bore to me right now.=)

好想好想和你在一起
和你一起数天上的星星
收集春天的细雨
好想好想和你在一起
听你诉说古老的故事
细数你眼中的情意
好想 好想 好想 好想
好想好想和你在一起
踏遍万水千山
走遍海角天涯
让每一个日子
都串连成我们最美丽
最美丽的回忆

好想好想和你在一起
并肩看天边的落日
并肩听林间的鸟语.喔...

I am still waiting...

The Ones That You Love The Most Are Usually The Ones That Hurt You The Most.

I am sorry...I will change

I Am Bored At Home

Hiazzzz..can't be more bored when u are at home...woke up at 3pm..went clubbing with the guys yesterday its was fun we talk we chatted we laugh we drink...Today is Donald Birthday...Happy Birthday Donald!!!!!!!!...

Went double O...their drinks was cheap very cheap..its like 3 dollars for a tequila pop??its really cheap man...lol..a few ang mohs came and approach me today..i was kind of stunt lol...talk to them awhile though some time i dun even noe what are they talking about..lol.. anyway the ang mohs are guys not woman hahaha..dun get the wrong idea..they were asking me about girls

Trying to keep myself occupied=)

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me, yeah

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go, oh yeah yeah

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love, whoa

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me, yeah oh yeah oh

Loving My Life Each Day

Just came back from a chit chatting session yet again=)
It fun i am loving it..=)

Everything I Say Its True

"True"

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

Boys Over Flower

I am kinda of hook onto this show now...hahaha...though i only watch only three episodes..lol..actresses are pretty...actors are handsome..
People do go watch this show: http://www.tom365.com/movie_2004/html/6095.html?20095893324.htm

Anyway after i have watch episode 2 i feel somewhat simliar to that guy...everything i try to do to please her..to just try to make friends with her...she will just feel annoyed and hate me even more..
haizzz...

Stamina Down

I think its is due to the long break of exercising, my stamina really went down by half, i could run as fast as i used to and i could not play as long as i could...i have to train up really...

Here is my heart felt song that i want to give u guys....

"What Makes You Different (Makes You Beautiful)"

You don't run with the crowd
You go your own way
You don't play after dark
You light up my day
Got your own kind of style
That sets you apart
Baby, that's why you captured my heart

I know sometimes you feel like you don't fit in
And this world doesn't know what you have within
When I look at you, I see something rare
A rose that can grow anywhere (grow anywhere)
And there's no one I know that can compare

What makes you different, (alright) makes you beautiful (alright)
What's there inside you, (alright) shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

Hey, yeah yeah yeah
You got something so real
You touched me so deep (touched me so deep)
You see material things
Don't matter to me
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You've won me with all that you do
And I wanna take this chance to say to you

What makes you different, (alright, yeah yeah) makes you beautiful (alright)
What's there inside you, (alright) shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful

You don't know (you don't know) how you touched my life (touched my life)
Oh in so many ways (so many ways) I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that make you beautiful to me (so beautiful)
Oh yeah, yeah

What makes you,
What makes you different, (what makes) makes you beautiful (to me)
What's there inside you, (there shines) shines through to me
In your eyes I see, all the love I'll ever need
You're all I need, oh girl
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me

Everything you do is beautiful (so beautiful)
Love you give shines right through me (shines right through to me)
Everything you do is beautiful (ooh, ooh ooh ooh oh)
Oh, you're beautiful to me (to me)

What makes you different really makes you beautiful to me..

I am glad that you would like to talk to me on the phone...i am happy..Hope there will be alot of chance like this in the future,,,

I Finally Know Why

你知道男人和女人说谎最大的差别在哪里吗？

男人说谎是让自己觉得好过，
而女人说谎是要让对方好过。

选择欺骗是因为不想伤害深爱的人，
不是故意的，只是没有伤害对方的勇气，
所以才阴緾真真的答案。

Hopes and Prayers

I kept thinking when can valerie be able to go out and meet me for lunch or dinner...just want to see her and she how she is and talk to her and all that...i am hoping that she would just ask me out one day for dinner..i will be so overjoyed by it..pls i am praying all night long.when u talk to me u seem so uninterested and not willing to talk to me further..i am trying hard to talk to u, to make u feel that i have actually going to change...

Staying at home is really a bore...i finally feel how valerie feel when i was away at overseas..the thought of wanting to see someone u really want to see and u could not see its really taking a knife and stabbing into ur heart...

Aft this two weeks of breaking up, i feel i have changed, changed to be more independent...looking at situation as a whole rather than just a single point of perspective...actually i am really trying to enjoy myself but looking at the way it is right now..i dun have the mood to enjoy at all...=(

Determination!!!!!thats what i need right now and also patience, this will help me to reach my goals...i must really be strong!!!!

I kept thinking when will she be ready to talk on phone with me...but i dun dare to ask her cause i scare she will say i am pushing my limits again...i dunnoe how to approach her now i dun have the confident too..haizzz sian, she is so hard to understand now..

So many decision to make in life..a wrong step and you are doom forever.. i have took one too many steps already...

Hopes and Determination

Determination and hope will drive one to his goal(s)!

I will take tt as an advice...

Depressed and Sad

Saw valerie blog...i know she is talking about tt guy...i can see that val can kind of get over me so easily might because of that guy she seems blinded by that guy already...

i feel damn sad and depressed now...

"I Promise You (With Everything I Am)"

It's in the silences,
the words you never say
I see it in your eyes,
it always starts the same way
It seems like everyone we know,
is breaking up
Does anybody ever stay in love, anymore?

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything I am

ooh I see you look at me,
when you think I'm not aware
You're searching for clues,
of just how deep my feelings are.
How do you prove the sky is blue, the oceans wide?
All I know is how I feel,
when I look into your eyes

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything that I am ooh yeah

Oh there are no guarantees
That's what you always say to me
But late at night I feel the tremble in your touch
Oh what I'm trying to say to you,
I never said to anyone I Promise

I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
(I do my darling I promise you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again

With everything I am I promise you,
from the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
( I love you I love you I love you I love you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like I never love again
With everything I am

You're everything I am oh yeah
With everything I am

Some of the lyrics can really relate to me...hahaha..go listen to it..really touches ur heart..

A Real 2nd Chance

The reason y i put the title as the real second chance is because last time when me and valerie were together i have made mistakes and thus we quarrel and she said she wanted to break up with me and all sorts of stuff..I would give plea her and say that i would change and telling her to give me another chance..yes i will change but its is always for only like 2-3 weeks time only..i admit i was wrong but i must keep reminding myself to change..i know this a botomless pit that i falling into right now...


That why i put a real second chance is because i would really like her to give me a second chance this time is for real, no more childish and sweet talk smses, its just purely me, and the will in me to change for myself and to also let her know that i am worthy for her again...however this is just my thoughts only...i know this will not happen at all...if it would happen i don't know how to react also...i would be damn stunt...



I know that i have been saying that i am giving up on her, yes this is true that i am giving up on her..the reason that i am giving up on her is because i would really want to be friends back with her again...i am missing the times where we could chat on the phone and gossip about other ppl...when will you just chat with me on the phone??hahaha...anyway i so bored right now..msged valerie but she did not reply, just hoping she would just online on MSN then we can chat together again..lol...
I AM SO BORED TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!




PS: My wish of my life would be that someday you would giving me the sunflowers...i swear that i would make u happy and feel love again
Will my determination and perseverance to change and be worthy of u been able to reach your heart???

Lol...sorry..never update blog yesterday..there is alot of things i wanna blog about this few days..shall do it tomolo...kind of busy to blog now

I WILL BE BACK

Determination and Perserverance

I just want to pour out my feelings here, i think i would feel better.

I have to talk to Val yesterday, i just feel it was time that i should start talking to her, she seems very unwilling and angry, told me to give up on her. Yes, i cannot deny that i have been thinking about how to get her back and all that, u guys can say i am stupid but i just really love her alot. Even up till now, i still love her and care for her, worried she will go clubbing again and all that, but its all due to the fact that now i have treated he as a friend now...no point denying saying i have forget about her saying "ya la, i give up liao la" those are really stupid and unhonest things to say, its will just make me feel abit better only.

I told her that i would like to woo her back, when i have changed i know that the trust she have on me is already fading away..i have to win her trust back. Being friends now, is actually better, for now at least i can go do some soul searching for myself, try to kick my bad habits away, try to think myself why she would leave me, and not to make the mistake again.

The mistakes that i have done to her is alot, i know its a thing that i have to prove to her let her know that...hey why is the wee chong not the childish wee chong that he used to be he has grown mature alot..i understand that i have to change myself before i can even try to win her back.

I just hope that we can be friends now, and she really treat me as a friend, i ask her out today wanting to just have a simple dinner with her and she how is she feeling, but she say she dun wan, ya i will just take things slowly, maybe she is just not ready to see me face to face.



PS: I hope that her love for me is not momentary. I really hope that my determination to change and my love for her would really change her mind in years to come. Ya, i know people will say, i now change next time if i were to get back to her again i would just start to come back to my old self. People say all you want la, this time i have really very determine to change not for her but for me. I hope this statement is true: " Miracles can only descend upon those with the will to carry on."

Just hope that she will just treat me as a true friend, it will take time i know, i will be patient.




How i wish that i can overturn back the board that both of us made, looking at it without crying....

i have been always been thinking alot of things lately, trying to live my life to the fullest. Tomolo will be the last day that i might be working, i will be free from that day...very free...

since i will be very free, i will be trying to blog everyday.=)

Mafia Wars my new addiction..hahaha...so bored in the company..so i decided to come and talk to myself..hahaha..watch wolverine with zhi li and fabian gang..this is the second time i am watching this show..the first time i was watching with char and the gang..the movie was not bad i suppose..

i was thinking should i get a pc, so tt i could play the games that i like??hahaha...nvm since i am going into army also...wandering wad army life should be..hahaha..

i really want to tell u something important...i will tell u went i feel confident and i feel i have changed..

Never Heard Of This Song

What Song Describes Your Life Your Result: A Little Bit Longer, Jonas Brothers   The song that describes your life is A Little Bit Longer by the Jonas Brothers. You are going through some rough times but your trying to stay strong and pull through. You are sensitive but fun.
La La Land, Demi Lovato	 
Love Story, Taylor Swift	 
When I Grow Up, p---- Cat Dolls	 
What Song Describes Your Life Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone   While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone	 
Disappointment	 
Looked down on	 
Commitment	 
Where Your life is Going	 
Death	 
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Miracle

Quote of the day:

Miracles can only descend upon those with the will to carry on.

played majong yesterday..damn it i lose like 12 dollars. i one person lose to three person so sian lo..hahaha.. so sian dunno later can go where and enjoy. NS is coming time to go spend my time wisely.

everything is just a misunderstanding..

i did not know tt wan yee had betrayed me and told val that i have asked her about wad she is thinkin right now...wan yee still so friendly and still initiate to ask me wheather i am asking about val anot..i will try not to contact valerie first..i will wait for things to cool down first before things get worse..val has block me in face book and also in msn..things does not turn to be as happy as it is...

we are supposing to celebrate our anniversary today...we have already plan what we are going to do today also. Things have changed fast...

i feel much better abit, i still love u alot, u say u wan to be true good friends with me and i hope this dream will come true soon. I want to see u, i want to see u so much, When can den we meet up???love you